Ricky, My heart, with deep voids missing my father and my beautiful boy, aches for you as it cannot fathom the intense amount of sorrow and loss and tragic circumstances of your losses. Brandon was Alex's brother and hero. He became my angel and comforted me as i helplessly watched the light dim in my sons eyes and his struggling, tormented spirit. Alex sought refuge and purged his pain many a time in Brandon's truck or at his gravesite. As did I. Following Alex's death, Brandon's nickels became Alex's penny and a dime. It took me awhile to understand that they were together and trying to make me know it. The dime, symbolic of not one nickel but two, was always accompanied by one single, face up penny. Now I just get pennies and am so thankful that our boys are tearing up the streets of gold bass and rap blasting together. Brandon also helped my dad home. I have no doubt that my dad and Vera watched his grandson and vera's daughter and Brandon living it up together and smiled. Now, the threesome is surely a posse! Rick, I won't pretend to understand your grief nor think that knowing they are together, happy, loved and safe makes your pain less. I will tell you that you are in my thoughts, prayers and heart often. I ask God to please surround you with a fortress of angels, give you the energy to simply breathe and the strength to get out of bed and the courage to hold on. In the short two years since God forced himself into my life, I have been in some of the darkest woods ever, yet the amazing grace He has shown me makes the darkest, unimaginable events not only bearable but blessings for those now with Him. In turn, knowing those i love and miss are surrounded by light, peace and love, gives me comfort and resolve to hang on until my purpose is complete. I pray you will allow yourself to feel the presence of God and all of our loved ones right beside you. They are with us. Please contact me anytime if to just rage and vent. Kay knows how much I want to support you if you want it and has my number. I am so sorry for all of you and i know nothing I can say makes it better. Just know I want to help, in whatever way you all want.... Silky