I am now and have been in absolute shock since the news of your passing. We knew each other since high school and had an instant connection as you did with so many but we had a special bond. I was there for you with Gerald and losing baby Chelsea. The time I almost lost you to an earlier suicide attempt that very few knew about. I was there for you with Rick, having Ashley and then Lexus but things were getting tough and I decided years ago to cut our ties because of the choices being made and I didn't want that lifestyle but I had always hoped to reunite with you again later down the road and pick up our friendship like we had in the past and was so excited to see you had finally joined facebook. I had looked for you so many times before. We were suppose to catch up but we never will. My heart aches for you. I guess it's the guilt of not being the friend that you needed at your darkest moments. I wish I would've know! I'm sorry my friend! I miss you terribly! Kimmie